i wish...

one of the things i'm really bad at is being able to say the exact thing I want to say at the exact moment I want to say it.
it's really a major issue to me, and it's causing me problems...

what to expect when you are expecting

My sister (best friend) is pregnant, she's in week 16 now which means she still have five months to go. Being excited about the idea and since i'm observing what's going on with her closely i decided to write about the funny part of pregnancy.
I’m not interested in talking about all the stuff that's happening inside the womb and how the baby is growing, well anyone can Google that and find plenty of articles telling you all about it, but I’m more into "what to expect from the people surrounding you".
when you first tell them the news with a big smile on your face mixed with plenty of anxiety that can be easily seen, they'll tell you congratulations "mabrook" but lets just wait to make sure even though the blood test proves it's 100% positive. (they'll start talking about the gender + the name).
All the ex-pregnants will start giving you the names of their doctors, the hospitals, the stretch marks cream you'll be using and what to expect through the 9 months journey all in less than one hour, not to forget their collection of stories about the ladies who died during delivery or their own miscarriage experience
After getting the confirmation from your doctor that you are really pregnant and gives you the very first picture of the baby (which is by the way a vague one) every one will start asking is it a boy or a girl? do you have names? but deep inside you can see that 80% of them are wishing and hoping it's going to be a baby boy !!!!!!!!.
Now, your face and attitude are very crucial at this moment since the 4-D ultrasound machine can't determine the gender yet. ya3ni if you're sleeping too much it's a sign that the baby is a girl, if by any chance you didn't look at your best then you're getting ugly and that means it's a baby boy, if you enjoy the smell of lemon then the baby is going to be a beautiful one, bla bla bla.....
If you didn't make up your mind on a name don't worry you'll be receiving lots of help, some will send you a list, some will start beautifying their names for you, some will give you the weirdest names you can imagine but all will dislike any name you mention.
To be continued.....

13 going on 30

"Why GOD? Why? " those were joey's words when he turned 30. Remember this episode of friends when they all turned 30 and how rachel felt about not achieving her dreams? Ross buying a sport car and phoebee jumping on some sort of a balloon.
Well, I've turned 30 today,Wow !!!!!!!!! I still can't connect the number(30) with me.. I'm not in my 20s anymore !!! Actually i don't care if i'm 70, but feeling that I could have done better decisions and choices in those years,that my life could have been a lot different.
It's not the end of the world, i really cherish the memories and people i collected all through the years and i'm so thankful for the life I've lived.
The blesses i had are countless,my parents are on the top of my list, fifo you're the best sister a person can have, you made my life so interesting and so easy, thank you for helping me with all the tiny details,thank you for being so patient with all the craziness and none sense i do.

Keys

The other morning i was leaving to work (late as usual) when i dropped my keys at the door, i lifted them up to realize that i have keys that i don't know what they are for.
What if those keys have the access to certain doors? (like the secret room where my mother keeps the chocolate in :P) what if life goes this way as well? what if we have keys to a better life to a promising future but we don't know how to use? or we don't even know that we have them already?

a year not wasted

As tom hanks playing the role of Joe fox in u've got mail said "the god father has the answer to everything", i would say that "ally mcbeal" does have the answer to everything at least for me.
Even though the answers and even the issues they raise doesn't make sense, but in a way they tend to make things come together at the end and come up with an extremely thoughtful idea that never passed ur mind.
From all the things that have been said on the show i'll quote this, since it's the end of the year:
"if u think back and replay ur year, if it doesn't bring back tears either of joy and sadness, consider the year wasted"
Looking back at 2007, i guess it wasn't a year wasted at all as so many tears will fall, tears of sadness,a little bit of happiness,regret,....
Never in my life have i experienced life the way i did this year,i never had to deal with serious issues like i did , so many decisions i had to take that had a major influence on my life, some i regret,some were perfect and some ,well i still don't know their impact yet..
I wish and hope that 2008 will take away all the bad mood i had to go through in 2007, and no matter how tough and real we turn to be, we should always keep a space for our dreams and innocence to blossom.

a question to the void

why do people change? why do they transform from making you feel you're on top of the world to nothing?

Ramadan

Wishing you a blessed Ramadan.